Phase3

posts/dilemma/index.qmd

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 I tried to portray through this classic example where we create our daily dilemma that works against us which hinders our health and wellness.
 
-|             |                                 |                                            |
-|:------:|:-------:|:---------------:|
-|             |                                 |                Present You                 |
-|             |                                 |                  Work-Out                  |
-| Future You  |            Work-Out             |           Best & Ideal Situation           |
-| No Work-Out | I can manage future work & Time | I can manage both work & time at all times |
+|            |             |                                 |                                            |
+|-----------|:-----------:|:--------------:|:--------------------:|
+|            |             |           Present You           |                Present You                 |
+|            |             |            Work Out             |                No Work Out                 |
+| Future You |  Work Out   |     Best & Ideal Situation      |      I can manage present work & Time      |
+| Future You | No Work-Out | I can manage future work & Time | I can manage both work & time at all times |
 
 [***To conclude***]{.underline}:
 
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-[***My favourite scenes from " A Beautiful Mind" Movie***]{.underline}:/
+[***My favourite scenes from " A Beautiful Mind" Movie***]{.underline}:
 
-<https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2d_dtTZQyUM>
+**Game theory Explanation**
+
+{{< video https://www.youtube.com/embed/2d_dtTZQyUM?si=X7STUQ-aEsOwHtQZ width="600" height="400" >}}

posts/emotional-hangover/index.qmd

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+---
+title: "Emotional Hangover"
+author: "Arun Koundinya Parasa"
+date: "2019-07-15"
+categories: [story, psychology]
+---
+
+What is Hangover?
+
+We all know about Hangover to put in simple and my way "it is just hanging around unconsciously".
+
+What is Emotional Hangover?
+
+There are many definitions and my way to put is " Hanging unconsciously with a dense of emotions ". 
+
+Why and how can there be an Emotional Hangover?
+Emotional Hangover as I look at it; starts with normal symptoms such as lack of focus, anxiety, tension in the body, lack of motivation towards our health and few others. If we do not recognize these emotions they may aggravate and will effect our own life. 
+
+To note, any bad incident that happens in our life can never be erased. It can only be forgotten.
+
+Let us read this small story snippet to learn how Emotional Hangover kills us.
+
+Story Snippet: { Story in First Person }
+
+Hi Friends, my name is Rahul Sharma. Most of my friends and especially my close friends and well wishers used to say that "You are good at almost every thing, however if you can control your emotions; you reach to new heights". I used to think that "Lack of controlling our emotions is a cult and ignored it".
+
+I realised that our true emotions comes out when our personal spaces overlap. Of course, when we are in relationship it is certain. Her name is *Supriya,* in initial days she enjoyed my love to full extent. Being more emotional ( as a lover we may not be able to control our emotions ) made her more gifted, excited and thrilled. Later after few months, my emotions led to break up. This made my emotional hangover further carried over to "alcohol over".
+
+Later, after an year I have joined in my first company. In enthuse and being carried with the same emotional hang mentality, I was liked by all managers. The reason is being my stupendous productivity and involvement. However, later these own emotions again made myself complicated; leading my colleagues deserting my companionship; which finally lead to my resignation. This further made me loose my confidence, productivity, health, my goal and few others.
+
+Later, after couple of years when my emotions regained to its normal state; and after thorough analysis within myself I felt that in both the episodes; i.e.; in my love as well as in my career my view is 100% right. It went wrong only in my expression. My analysis and thinking is perfect but when I'm expressing my views, my emotions over ruled unconsciously. That showcases a different picture leading for unnecessary conclusions on my personality. Certainly, when we are in high emotional state our unconscious brain hinds our conscious process of thinking making us difficult to express to what we want to express.
+
+Also, being more emotional becomes a tool for others to fulfil their interests and goals.
+
+I would like to stop the story at this juncture and leave the ending and conclusion to  your imagination.\
+\
+To Conclude, Self Disciple and Self Control towards our own emotions certainly will lead to a happy and prosperous life.\
+\
+To Note, even a small tweaking in our daily habits like daily jog/morning prayer will certainly lead to larger benefits of controlling our emotional hangover. " ***What do you think the reason for it? is it a Domino effect?***"

posts/responsibility/index.qmd

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+---
+title: "Responsibility"
+author: "Arun Koundinya Parasa"
+date: "2019-07-20"
+categories: [reflection]
+---
+
+This fourteen letter word indeed plays a major role in our life. Because each and every situation that we face in our life we need to play our role with cent percent involvement and responsible for the consequences for that situation. 
+
+This time I will try to explain the prime importance of this fourteen letter word with the help of a story. Hope you will like it.
+
+Narration type-\> First person.
+
+I feel the beads of on my forehead although the temperature in the room is 18^o^C. I’m neither preparing for exams nor I was caught doing something bizarre ;). It’s about a delivery that needs to be delivered to the customer that has already been delayed by 120 minutes. Time is now 9:00 A.M and I’m completely famished.
+
+I heard a sweet lovely voice, when I was in this horrendous task, and it says “Hi, can you help me with this?”
+
+I know she is cute and sweet and had it been on a normal day I would have explained the complete history of the work that she was asking but now it’s the wrong time and in haste I replied in my usual manner “ Sorry !!!, ask someone else or come later. I’m not free now.”
+
+Everyone around me felt that I was rude but I hope that situation understanding will condone my behaviour.
+
+Delivery went on smoothly and finally our customer got satisfied when his customer got satisfied but on the other side she is unhappy. I took that as a trade off as I felt that one should be more responsible to their work rather than relationship with co-worker.
+
+Now it is 4:00 P.M in the evening, I stuck to my four wheeled chair for quarter a day and my spine is aching and sending signals to my grey matter to shut down the computer and get up. Finally I decided to delegate my work to my legs and slowly I took them towards the window glass and pulled down the curtain. Evening sun rays pierced the windows and landed on my eyes and boosted my mitochondria, all of a sudden I felt I saw a new world. Then slowly I asked Sun god to forgive me for showing off my back to him. Now I have seen two eye balls with more fierce and warm than that of the sun. I felt that I should go to her desk and ask whether she need any help but on the contrary I decided to evade as she is in need of help *she should approach me.*
+
+Slowly the day faded away.
+
+Next morning I kept on my soul in my banal work and completely involved to give an error free delivery. Suddenly those fierce eye balls flashed to my memory and I came to normal world and shook my head with smile and got up from my seat to see what she is doing now. But she isn’t there at her place and it happened for next one week. Through group manager I came to know that she is suffering from typhoid and will be coming to office in coming week.
+
+From that instant; my mind created interest on her which finally led me to search for her on Facebook and sent a request to be a friend with her. Within few hours she responded the request and we started chatting together and it ended on that with exchange of our numbers. On that day I felt like flying up in the air as I was feeling more confidence, that I can accomplish anything in this world.
+
+In next few days we got closer; most interesting is that we never spoke face to face but only through sms. Ice broke between us when on one day she called me late night and lately after an hour of chat, “I proposed her”. In response to my request for proposal she cut down the call and texted me for the reason for my act. I know there is no one on this earth who can give a perfect reason, at that time I thought I was too intelligent than her and I tried to justify my proposal through various ways; As usual she wasn’t pleased with anything.
+
+Next day when I woke up early morning I realised the mistake I have done last night. But as I had proposed her I felt that it was my responsibility to commit myself to my act and for my words. Everyone knows that no one proposes to a girl in two weeks of their acquaintance unless it’s love at first sight. I thought that I should either say her that it was cent percent infatuation and went to office in the same notion when I was about to swipe my card into my zone; I received a text saying. “I think you are serious. I know you love me; but how can I perceive it unless you show it to me?”
+
+I was dumb struck to respond to that text. As came to office with a different notion and that sms was a bolt out of blue. So, finally I said to myself that she will be my wife as I felt it is the only way to be more responsible for what I have done. I replied to that text saying that you will feel it in near future. But I know that my decision is abrupt and I don’t have any logical conclusion as how I could have decide about my better half without even completely getting to know about her; A lot of questions popped up in my mind however I struck to my decision that she is my wife for this life.\
+\
+Also, I felt that I love her truly with my cent percent emotions. Then I started to show her these emotions to her and she got confirmed that I was very true to her and accepted my proposal and in few months we got married.
+
+After reading the story you may come to a conclusion that this story doesn’t go along with the title.\
+\
+But however if you observe the act he has been doing be it be in his work life or in his personal life he felt that his actions and the consequences of his action for which he is responsible is his responsibility. So, he held to himself that he is responsible albeit no one questioned to him. This is so because he constantly questioning to himself and tried to be as true as possible to himself. Similarly… { How can we decide about our better half in match-looking after speaking to them in quick time. But marriages, culture and authenticity sustained }
+
+As we have age old adage “Necessity is the mother of invention”. Finally, I would like to complete the article by saying that “Responsibility is the father of fraternity”.

posts/what-is-hapiness-part2/index.qmd

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+---
+title: "What is Happiness?? - Part 2"
+author: "Arun Koundinya Parasa"
+date: "2019-07-13"
+categories: [story, reflection]
+---
+
+Long back I have read an [***Antharyami***]{.underline} article in "Eenadu" NewsPaper { Largest circulated newspaper in AndhraPradesh & Telangana 
+
+Link: [https://www.eenadu.net/newsdetails/16/2019/02/10/30522/Karmayogam](https://www.eenadu.net/newsdetails/16/2019/02/10/30522/Karmayogam)
+
+In this blog i'm here to present a view that has its root in the above mentioned article. Hope you will like it.
+
+This is a conversation between a Psychotherapist and an young software programmer in their third sitting.
+
+Psychotherapist - Anupuma
+Programmer - Kid
+
+*Kid*:  Good Evening Ma'am.
+
+*Anupuma*: Good Evening. You look better now. It is been almost couple of months since we meet. How have you been doing.
+
+*Kid*: I'm doing good. Also, I'm getting better with myself.
+
+*Anupuma*: Good to hear this from you.
+*Kid*: Can I ask you one thing frankly.
+*Anupuma*: Yes... Continue Please.
+*Kid*: Although we spend so much effort in the right direction. Why there is failure?
+*Anupuma*: Why there has to be a success??
+
+Kid gave a confused look and asked again - "Success is prime, that keeps motivated to go ahead. Isn't it right?"
+
+"Well, Well, Well; Of course that does. However when i asked why there has to be success", She paused and took a sip of water and continued,"I'm mentioning about the outcome."
+"Dear, Success or Failure is a binary output variable for the work we do. Do you expect that you should have only 'success' in your life and not the failure?"
+
+"I don't mean it Ma'am. I was saying that when we give our 100 percent effort to our fullest abilities and we know that we reached the goal. We expect a success and not a failure?"
+
+"That is good."
+
+"You mean failure is good".
+
+She smiled and came beside him and said, " I mean about effort and the fact that you know that you reached your goal. It is a success for you."
+
+"If there isn't anyone who would recognise it and take it forward. It is a pain. And what would I do with that success"\
+
+"Let me clarify it my dear. There is a great difference between effort, performance, accomplishment and assessment", she got up and took the black marker and drawn a movie film projector and the screen.
+
+She continued, " You remember the old movies. How they used to play. Unlike the digital projection now a days. A film is rolled and gets projected on the silver screen by aid of the projector.
+
+Our brain projects what is in our schema.
+
+In your scenario. your film projected that - since you did great effort and provided exemplary performance and you did accomplish that you feel. The assessment towards it should get added to make it a complete success.\
+
+Isn't it so?"
+
+Kid has gone into his deep thinking by trying to visualise and compare the set of events that has happened to him so far. And nodded the head.
+
+Anupuma continued, " Also, you have tied your happiness with the complete success. Although you spent so much energy and effort you are unable to appreciate yourself."
+
+"Can you explain me with a better example Ma'am. Am Unable to decipher what you are trying to say."
+
+"Assume that you want to participate in 100m running race. So, get into participation you practice a lot, change your diet habits which is your effort. Say you want to finish the race in 15 seconds. You ran very well during the race and finished the race in say 14 seconds. This is called your performance and accomplishment.
+Now say that you finished 3rd as the 1st and 2nd runner finished in 13.40 & 13.50 seconds respectively. Finally this is your assessment part where you have to assess on how to finish the next race on number 1 spot."
+"If you tie up the happiness with the assessment part. It will lead to stress and disappointment."
+"Also, event the top most cricket team as well loose matches; although they have best players in their team or how best they perform. However, the team assess on how to win the next match. The team morale will goes down if they go in virtuous cycle of stress and disappointment."
+
+Anupuma paused for a minute and allowed the kid to digest the example and continued,
+"Happiness is not a by product. It is a celebration of you being in the journey of your life"
+
+"Thanks a lot Ma'am. I think i got a new contrary evidence to my schema which will help me to change my habits."\
+
+"Come in fifteen days dear."
+
+"Sure Ma'am. Thanks a lot".
+
+I would like to end the article by saying that - LIVING is a present form speech. So, we have to be "In Present" while living.\
+
+Note: It doesn't mean we should not have future plans. I recommend that we should not spoil our journey path for future.

posts/what-is-hapiness/index.qmd

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 categories: [happiness, reflection]
 ---
 
-\
 It's been long time I have penned my opine. This time, I chose a topic that's been greatly researched; and been perceived as a "state".
 
 In this article i tried to showcase about my understanding on Happiness (but certainly not talking about Happiness Index- which is damn debatable).